I just can't BE . . . .

Dear People Outside of My House,

I am sorry I have Checked Out of "being" for awhile.  Like those memes about not being able to human, I just can't BE.  No need to include anything after BE.  I can't be fun.  I can't be social.  I can't be energetic.  Getting up and doing even the littlest activity is beyond my capabilities right now.  And so, I just can't BE.

BEing a MOM.  Sigh.  It's hard.  I'm trying, but good golly.  There are nights I just want to shout "I DON'T CARE."  Seriously, 800 pages of school work a day times two kiddos, reminders about parties and field trips and spelling tests and the worry that my child is being bullied or other such issues which I make up in my mind because I enjoy worrying and fretting over stuff that hasn't happened, sigh.  Don't they know I'm having a hard time just BEing and the avalanche of papers each evening isn't helping me???

Yes.  I am overwhelmed.  Finances.  Insurances.  Bills.  Tuitions. 

I just can't BE.

So, if you don't hear from me for awhile, it's not that I don't love you or care about you.  I do.  I do care about you and love everything you do for me, but I.just.can't.BE right now.

Please understand and continue to BE (there for me) for when I'm ready again.  If it is too much for you, I will understand.  Not BEing someone who can be counted on the BE there for others isn't really that great of a trait.

Thank you,
someone who just cannot BE.